Hummingbirding

So I met this girl Amanda...shes an airman. Shes super cut and short and sexy and I just love her. One of the first lesbians who's ever hit on me. She can't leave the base yet, but the mid its shes able to, Imma snatch her up and nom on her! We're always flirting and we both tease. We've pretty much established that we would be great fuck buddies. I can't wait to get to know her better!

So

I met an amazing woman a few days ago. Shes hot, like really. So strong. And adorable. Shes really shy around me, but totally not when we text. I want to sleep with her...yes...the dirty kind. XD she'll be able to go off base in a little less than two weeks...im excited...we're both really deprived of sex. I think if we hook up it would new amazing...maybe My dreams will go away.  Im not going to tell Spencer until its decided if we get back together or not. I dont want to give him something to worry about.
But I really am excited for What's to come...its going to be a whole new real Lesbian experience for me. :)

What my dreams are telling me #1

There is a void in my life I am looking to fill
Emptyness-i feel life is passing me by
There is something in my life I am attempting to seize.
Desire to dispose of everything unpleasant
Distance myself from others to ensure emotional safety
Strengthen tie bond between you and your significant other.
Accept the past. Especially things that can't be changed.
Insufficient, not living up to the expectations of others.

Superbass

I know now that I can live life without you.

But I also know that my life wolf be a lot more amazing and fun and fantastic with you in it.

Ocean

This break has taught me a lot of things. First of all that there are some things that I need to work on myself.

But most of all, that I need to appreciate what all my love does for me.
I have understood now that I need to be there for him as a friend and not just a lover. There aren't certain rules to a relationship.

Breeze

The bf and I are on a sort-of-break thing...im still confused by it. It hurts me every second of every minute of every hour of every day.

But I've come to understand that I mist respect his wishes. And just wait. I will always me there for him. And I hope he will always be there for me, and in the end, we can both emerge sharing something grand. Something more than love, but knowledge,  grace and power. And strength. 

I love him so. I will shed a tear for him every night till we join again. And in each tear, I hope takes the stress away that I caused him and I.

I learn to respect, and I respect to learn. But please darling, I hope you hurry the fuck up because my heart feels a bit lonely.

-your love.

Blackbird

I'm visiting the boyfriend in a couple of days.
i'm super nervous because this will be the longest trip i've ever made by myself.
I can't wait though.
I get my kitty two!
Everything else has been fine...even though schools almost been out for a month now i still haven't checked my grades. :[ ooops
i'm honestly too scared. :[
tis all i suppose. <3