I guess I've changed...And he's right. I'm not as confident. I have no motivation at all. And I feel my self esteem dropping. Which is new for me. I'm at a high low. If that makes any sense. xD
But things will get better. They always do.
To motivate myself, I've decided to make a list of the things that are stressing me out, and ways I can fix them. So here it goes.
Study Habits/Grades- I will study more, and find new ways of studying. Read the handouts that I got at the counselor's office. Go to the library more. Take things more seriously. Be more optimistic.
Work- Maybe try talking to managers about how I feel. Continue looking for a new job. Look at school or mall. Somewhere closer to cut back on gas.
Friends- Talk to my friends more about how I feel. Don't hold back. Be honest with them, but in a nice way. Don't be bitchy.
Money- Stop buying magazines. Pick a day to go through room to find things to sell. Try drawing and making art to sell to people. Find more work. Get a second job in the summer.
Tummy Issues- MAKE A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT. Tell about not burping and previous appointments.
Tooth Aches- Make a fucking appointment Ahna.
Relationship- Don't dwell on things too much.
I might add in the future. :]
These are all good things. All things that I have so much hope for you because I have let myself down. I understand your love for him. Keep blogging please.
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